God’s Wonder Woman
by Mary Moss
O Lord, thou hast searched me and known me!
Thou knowest when I sit down and when I rise up;
thou discernest my thoughts from afar.
Thou searchest out my path and my lying down,
and art acquainted with all my ways.
Even before a word is on my tongue, lo,
O Lord, thou knowest it altogether.
Thou dost beset me behind and before,
and layest thy hand upon me.
Such knowledge is too wonderful for me;
it is high, I cannot attain it.
These verses remind me of how I thought of my mother when I was a child. Not only did she seem to have eyes in the back of her head, but she also knew what I was thinking, and what I was about to say before I even formed the words in my mouth—at least 9 times out of ten! And of course, because she carried me in her womb, she did know me intimately—we were at one time one being, divinely planned, formed and nurtured by a loving God. And how did my father always know what was going to happen next on the television program we happened to be watching together? Now that I am a woman, with grown children of my own, I understand the source of that seeming omnipotent wisdom and fore-knowledge—it’s called life experience!
We still possess that piece of the divine that God placed in us at our creation. Too often, though, we realize that our vision of that divinity and our own divine purpose—the one that transcends the here and now of carpools and grocery shopping, PTA meetings and all the other to-do list items that make up our day—has been lost, or never even had a chance to develop.
God has made each of us to fulfill a specific purpose in our lives, with our lives. We’re just so busy that we don’t have time to think about anything more than our jobs, our families, our responsibilities, our lives! And even if we did have the time . . . the world does a very good job of convincing us that we are not good enough because we aren't like those business-savvy women on a popular television show, or the ones who dare to do things we can’t even imagine to win a big cash prize. Not like those long-suffering, patient wives on the latest sitcoms. Not like those beautiful, brilliant forensic scientists on the crime series shows. And even before that, maybe our parents or our peers convinced us we’re not good enough, or outright failures.
Maybe we expend all our energy being a good mother, wife, sister, daughter, or friend. Perhaps it's being a single mom and having all the responsibility—financially and emotionally—for rearing your children. Perhaps it's caring for an elderly parent. Sometimes we give away so much of ourselves to so many people that we don’t even know who we are anymore.
At times like this, it is easy to feel lost and alone, thirsty for something real and fulfilling and thirst-quenching. We long for a taste of something that will matter, to be the person God designed us to be, but we just don’t know who that woman is. How do we even begin to figure out who we are through the eyes of God when we’re so busy, we don’t even have time to catch our breath?
We need to simplify our lives and base them on meeting some of our own spiritual needs if we ever hope to have a meaningful and fulfilling life. One way could be to block out 30 minutes in your daily schedule, 2 mornings a week, meet with God. Write it on there; it is an important meeting. Don’t break the date . . . get up early if you need to. Begin journaling your experience during these sacred times, or read the Bible, a devotional book, or some other spiritual resource. Hire a babysitter and join a women’s spiritual group, or start one of your own. How about meeting a friend for coffee and a manicure once a month? Try spending a day ignoring that to-do list and driving to the beach, or to the park, or the river with the kids. Life will still be waiting for you when you return!
The problem in our lives is not one of control. The problem is who is in control! Clearly we are unable to manage the demands of life as modern women without encouragement, support, and faith. In order to maintain our faith, we must feed it and nurture it and make it a priority in our lives. Once we do that, everything else begins to fall into place.
June 1, 2007
God’s Wonder Woman